On a Day When I Was Thanking God for Good Friends, Good Therapists, and Lexapro

Darkness

Would you sit with me for a while

In the darkness

At the bottom of this pit

I’ve stopped to catch my breath

Reassess

Find a way out of it

Someone dropped a ladder

That I cannot seem to find

I know there’s a candle here somewhere

If only I could make it catch light

Many directions have been given

With love - to be sure

But when you’re on alien ground

It all starts to blur

East and west

Ceiling and floor

There is no easy escape

Someone told me to pray my way out

But my pleas all sound the same

God help me

God help me

God take away this madness

Or maybe God could give me a new brain

One without the trauma and the penchant for sadness

This darkness starts to twist your thoughts

The longer you face it alone

Maybe they’re better without me

Maybe it’d be nice to be gone

But with you here

Pulling up a chair

Saving space and listening close

It suddenly doesn’t feel so bad

My chest is a little loose

Look to the right

There’s a tunnel there

The sun’s a little brighter

I can see again

The fog starts to clear

.My whole body feels lighter

You say you didn’t do that much

You only sat and listened

But being with me in the dark

Has made all the difference